I feel like I am running on a treadmill!
My bible readings, prayer time and alone time is suffering.
Thank GOD the baby is moving now or I would forget I was preggers....
Work is closing in and I am not coping well.
I feel like a failure with my kids - one more dinner plopped in the crock pot today - Baked Zita - with a huge veggie twist (shhhhhhh they don't need to know there are carrots, zucchinni, cauliflower or squash). It will be done by lunch and they can snack on it till dinner. They are home from school and I have parent teacher conference that I smidged in between two meetings - one having me run back to work at a high rate of speed.
I love living in Chicago - everything is centralized - but at times I feel more frazzled trying to get from point a to point b.
I will be so glad when 4/16 is here - I am going to plop myself in bed and not get out till the 17th - when we leave on a mini vacay of sorts.
I feel like such a slug and failure. I have, however, retreated to a quiet room to read prologue from Park.
I just want to know how I lost control of my time and my commitments? How does this happen? How do I prevent it?
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Non-Productive
I feel so non-productive today. I am in a daze. It's kinda like I am walking in a fog.
I feel like the only thing I did productive today is start dinner in the crock pot before leaving for work.
Thank goodness for a year of slow cooking! Today's dinner - Apricot Chicken and rice.
I am hoping this turns out better than the root beer pulled pork fiasco. I almost bought real root beer today - but then I would have to hide it from my children who think root beer is their "treat" since we don't push pop or kool aide in our house. We have a boring house I am afraid - water and soy milk.
I am really anal about what they eat in my home - cause I can control that. I tell them - if I tightly control what they eat at home (I figure about 80% of the food they eat) then I can let the parties, sleep overs and get to gethers go (the 20% I can't control).
With that said - I did not buy the root beer but put the recipe on the calender about three weeks from now.... Way after Easter.
UGH - Easter - what am I going to do for Easter dinner!!!!!
I feel like the only thing I did productive today is start dinner in the crock pot before leaving for work.
Thank goodness for a year of slow cooking! Today's dinner - Apricot Chicken and rice.
I am hoping this turns out better than the root beer pulled pork fiasco. I almost bought real root beer today - but then I would have to hide it from my children who think root beer is their "treat" since we don't push pop or kool aide in our house. We have a boring house I am afraid - water and soy milk.
I am really anal about what they eat in my home - cause I can control that. I tell them - if I tightly control what they eat at home (I figure about 80% of the food they eat) then I can let the parties, sleep overs and get to gethers go (the 20% I can't control).
With that said - I did not buy the root beer but put the recipe on the calender about three weeks from now.... Way after Easter.
UGH - Easter - what am I going to do for Easter dinner!!!!!
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Mystery Knit
Ok - Mama confession......
I spent some time at work trying to get things done.... and was feeling really stressed.
I ran away.... Sad I know. I just went downtown to fondle some yarn, looking for nothing in particular, but had a couple of patterns in my bag. Let me clarify - I ran away because of stress from work - not because I don't want to be a mommy.
I decided to start this knit - a Mystery Knit - because it peaked my interest - a bit of the pattern every few days?
Of course - it's in purple - using mixed purple beads since the yarn is a variation of purples.
I now remember why I do not like to knit with beads - the stringing of the beads.
As it was - I also ran to Michael's so that Rowan could have supplies she needed for school (pom poms, craft paper, sock yarn, seed beads). Ok, so maybe the last two were not supplies for Rowan by supplies for mama.......
But rest assured - I had things under control. Nat and Rowan were set up with two movies from Netflix, including books to read, and dinner was in the crock pot. I was an EL ride away or a brisk walk if needed (and apparently my butt is needing it lately).
Dinner was from Stephanie O'Dea at A Year of Slow Cooking. Our family loves her ideas for recipes in the crock pot.
Tonight was the root beer pulled pork. Consensus was simply blah. I think, had I used real root beer, as opposed to diet, it would have been a little better. We agreed to do a second round of it in a few weeks.
Me - not much of a meat eater - so wasn't impressed. With the baby - still not a meat eater.
I spent some time at work trying to get things done.... and was feeling really stressed.
I ran away.... Sad I know. I just went downtown to fondle some yarn, looking for nothing in particular, but had a couple of patterns in my bag. Let me clarify - I ran away because of stress from work - not because I don't want to be a mommy.
I decided to start this knit - a Mystery Knit - because it peaked my interest - a bit of the pattern every few days?Of course - it's in purple - using mixed purple beads since the yarn is a variation of purples.
I now remember why I do not like to knit with beads - the stringing of the beads.
As it was - I also ran to Michael's so that Rowan could have supplies she needed for school (pom poms, craft paper, sock yarn, seed beads). Ok, so maybe the last two were not supplies for Rowan by supplies for mama.......
But rest assured - I had things under control. Nat and Rowan were set up with two movies from Netflix, including books to read, and dinner was in the crock pot. I was an EL ride away or a brisk walk if needed (and apparently my butt is needing it lately).
Dinner was from Stephanie O'Dea at A Year of Slow Cooking. Our family loves her ideas for recipes in the crock pot.
Tonight was the root beer pulled pork. Consensus was simply blah. I think, had I used real root beer, as opposed to diet, it would have been a little better. We agreed to do a second round of it in a few weeks.
Me - not much of a meat eater - so wasn't impressed. With the baby - still not a meat eater.
Finished Product
This morning, unable to sleep - I got up and finished the other end of the star blanket!
Natalie and Rowan LOVE the blanket.
Although there is now jealous, amongst the ranks, that the baby is getting custom made outfits. I tried to explain to them that they too had hand made outfits, only they had hand sewn outfits.
I find that I am very unproductive at night and very productive in the wee hours of the AM.
Unfortunately, my photo taking skills are lacking. And I just couldn't find a creative way to display the blanket.
I have been looking through the book trying to decide what to make next.
A fabulous book for anyone expecting or anyone knitting for someone expecting!
Natalie and Rowan LOVE the blanket.
Although there is now jealous, amongst the ranks, that the baby is getting custom made outfits. I tried to explain to them that they too had hand made outfits, only they had hand sewn outfits.
I find that I am very unproductive at night and very productive in the wee hours of the AM.
Unfortunately, my photo taking skills are lacking. And I just couldn't find a creative way to display the blanket.
I have been looking through the book trying to decide what to make next.
A fabulous book for anyone expecting or anyone knitting for someone expecting!
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Getting ready to finish....
I can not wait to cast on another project from this book.
But tonight I am exhausted - and must retire to bed!
Heaven and Hell
Tomorrow's message at church - been reading it tonight. I have a feeling, while it will be presented quite well, it will be heavy!
- Do angels come and take us to heaven – Bible does not say - No indication we can see the other side - No indication that those who are in Hades can talk to those who are in the presence of God WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DIE? WHERE DO YOU GO?
- Soul Sleep WHAT ARE THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN HADES – SHEOL – GEHENNA - PARADISE? - 2 Peter 2:9 then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from trials, and to keep the unrighteous UNDER PUNISHMENT UNTIL THE DAY OF JUDGMENT FOR THE FOLLOWER OF JESUS:
- Philippians 1:23 I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and BE WITH CHRIST, for that is far better. - 2 Corinthians 5:6 - Luke 23:43 FINAL JUDGMENT –GREAT WHITE THRONE: - Acts 17:30 The times of ignorance God overlooked, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent, 31 because HE HAS FIXED A DAY ON WHICH HE WILL JUDGE THE WORLD - Romans 2:5 - Revelation 20:11-15
After the Great White Throne or Final Judgment, all humanity will either live in the new heavens and the new earth or in hell I HAVE HEARD THAT HELL IS REALLY JUST NOTHINGNESS IS THAT TRUE? - Annihilation: God does not delight in the thought of hell. GOD DOES NOT DELIGHT IN THE THOUGHT OF HELL
- 1 Timothy 2:4 who desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. - Ezekiel 33:11 - 2 Peter 3:9 WHAT IS HELL? - Isaiah 66:24 “And they shall go out and look on the dead bodies of the men who have rebelled against me. For their worm shall not die, their fire shall not be quenched, and they shall be an abhorrence to all flesh.” - Matthew 13:49-50 - Revelation 19:20 - Revelation 20:13-15 - Revelation 21:8
ARE THERE DEGREES OF PUNISHMENT IN HELL? - Luke 12:47 And that servant who knew his master’s will but did not get ready or act according to his will, will receive a severe beating. 48 But the one who did not know, and did what deserved a beating, will receive a light beating. - Matthew 11:22 - Revelation 20:12
SOME OF YOU RIGHT NOW ARE THINKING THIS ISN’T FAIR WHAT HAPPENS TO THOSE WHO ARE FOLLOWERS OF JESUS? - HEAVEN - Revelation 21:1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. 2 And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. 4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” 5 And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” 6 And he said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. 7 The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son. - NEW HEAVENS AND NEW EARTH - Wedding Feast – Banquet - Matthew 26:29 - Revelation 19:9 - IT IS A CITY WE WILL LIVE IN - Revelation 21:15-25
ARE SOME CHRISTIAN REWARDED MORE THAN OTHERS IN HEAVEN? - Revelation 11:18 The nations raged, but your wrath came, and the time for the dead to be judged, and for rewarding your servants . . . - 1 Corinthians 3:12-15
WHAT ARE WE GIVEN AS OUR REWARD? - A CROWN - Revelation 4:10 the twenty-four elders fall down before him who is seated on the throne and worship him who lives forever and ever. They cast their crowns before the throne, saying, IS THERE SUCH A THING AS A LOVED ONE LOOKING DOWN FROM HEAVEN? - Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses . . .
WILL I KNOW LOVED ONES AND FRIENDS IN HEAVEN? WILL I STILL BE MARRIED IN HEAVEN? WILL I GET MARRIED IN HEAVEN? (MY FATHER AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT THIS VERY THING LAST WEEK – MY MOM AND MY SISTER AND MY SON) - Matthew 22:29 But Jesus answered them, “You are wrong, because you know neither the Scriptures nor the power of God. 30 For in the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven. - 1 Corinthians 13:12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
WHAT WILL PREVENT ME FROM GOING TO HELL FOR WHAT I HAVE ALREADY DONE?
Luke 16:19-29 :: Heaven & Hell
What is biblically supported in the narrative?: - Background - Details of the rich man - Details of the poor man - Lazarus in the place of God - Where Abraham is now - Reclining at the table – what is to come - Hades – torment - No second chance once you die - There is a chasm between heaven and hell - The Bible is more than enough for folks to make wise, Spiritual decisions about God and Jesus - Seeing a miracle is no guarantee someone is going to be believe What is not biblically supported in the narrative?:- Do angels come and take us to heaven – Bible does not say - No indication we can see the other side - No indication that those who are in Hades can talk to those who are in the presence of God WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DIE? WHERE DO YOU GO?
- Soul Sleep WHAT ARE THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN HADES – SHEOL – GEHENNA - PARADISE? - 2 Peter 2:9 then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from trials, and to keep the unrighteous UNDER PUNISHMENT UNTIL THE DAY OF JUDGMENT FOR THE FOLLOWER OF JESUS:
- Philippians 1:23 I am hard pressed between the two. My desire is to depart and BE WITH CHRIST, for that is far better. - 2 Corinthians 5:6 - Luke 23:43 FINAL JUDGMENT –GREAT WHITE THRONE: - Acts 17:30 The times of ignorance God overlooked, but now he commands all people everywhere to repent, 31 because HE HAS FIXED A DAY ON WHICH HE WILL JUDGE THE WORLD - Romans 2:5 - Revelation 20:11-15
After the Great White Throne or Final Judgment, all humanity will either live in the new heavens and the new earth or in hell I HAVE HEARD THAT HELL IS REALLY JUST NOTHINGNESS IS THAT TRUE? - Annihilation: God does not delight in the thought of hell. GOD DOES NOT DELIGHT IN THE THOUGHT OF HELL
- 1 Timothy 2:4 who desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. - Ezekiel 33:11 - 2 Peter 3:9 WHAT IS HELL? - Isaiah 66:24 “And they shall go out and look on the dead bodies of the men who have rebelled against me. For their worm shall not die, their fire shall not be quenched, and they shall be an abhorrence to all flesh.” - Matthew 13:49-50 - Revelation 19:20 - Revelation 20:13-15 - Revelation 21:8
ARE THERE DEGREES OF PUNISHMENT IN HELL? - Luke 12:47 And that servant who knew his master’s will but did not get ready or act according to his will, will receive a severe beating. 48 But the one who did not know, and did what deserved a beating, will receive a light beating. - Matthew 11:22 - Revelation 20:12
SOME OF YOU RIGHT NOW ARE THINKING THIS ISN’T FAIR WHAT HAPPENS TO THOSE WHO ARE FOLLOWERS OF JESUS? - HEAVEN - Revelation 21:1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. 2 And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. 4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” 5 And he who was seated on the throne said, “Behold, I am making all things new.” Also he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” 6 And he said to me, “It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. 7 The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son. - NEW HEAVENS AND NEW EARTH - Wedding Feast – Banquet - Matthew 26:29 - Revelation 19:9 - IT IS A CITY WE WILL LIVE IN - Revelation 21:15-25
ARE SOME CHRISTIAN REWARDED MORE THAN OTHERS IN HEAVEN? - Revelation 11:18 The nations raged, but your wrath came, and the time for the dead to be judged, and for rewarding your servants . . . - 1 Corinthians 3:12-15
WHAT ARE WE GIVEN AS OUR REWARD? - A CROWN - Revelation 4:10 the twenty-four elders fall down before him who is seated on the throne and worship him who lives forever and ever. They cast their crowns before the throne, saying, IS THERE SUCH A THING AS A LOVED ONE LOOKING DOWN FROM HEAVEN? - Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses . . .
WILL I KNOW LOVED ONES AND FRIENDS IN HEAVEN? WILL I STILL BE MARRIED IN HEAVEN? WILL I GET MARRIED IN HEAVEN? (MY FATHER AND I WERE TALKING ABOUT THIS VERY THING LAST WEEK – MY MOM AND MY SISTER AND MY SON) - Matthew 22:29 But Jesus answered them, “You are wrong, because you know neither the Scriptures nor the power of God. 30 For in the resurrection they neither marry nor are given in marriage, but are like angels in heaven. - 1 Corinthians 13:12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
WHAT WILL PREVENT ME FROM GOING TO HELL FOR WHAT I HAVE ALREADY DONE?
Friday, April 1, 2011
What I am reading now.....
I strive to be a good mom, pleasing and disciplining enough 80% of the time. I feel I miss the mark alot (to be quite honest with you).
I just picked up this book - or rather downloaded it on my ENook.
The author lives in Illinois and has a Chicago Flair to her writing. I can totally relate to her. I am slowly reading each chapter. I take a break after a chapter to reflect and really digest all that she is saying. I find this book refreshing and guiding. I find this restores my desire to be the best mom God created me to be as well as hope that he will guide me there if I just stop, take a breath and listen to him.
I just picked up this book - or rather downloaded it on my ENook.
The author lives in Illinois and has a Chicago Flair to her writing. I can totally relate to her. I am slowly reading each chapter. I take a break after a chapter to reflect and really digest all that she is saying. I find this book refreshing and guiding. I find this restores my desire to be the best mom God created me to be as well as hope that he will guide me there if I just stop, take a breath and listen to him.
Praise God
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